They hurt tonight. I actually can't sleep at all. So... I gotta finish my mango. And some oatmeal. Maybe they will go away, and I can sleep for a while. That would be nice.
I am re-thinking this whole no-drug labor thing. I remember the pain. I don't like pain. Does anyone really? Like, why do they say it is all woman-empowering and whatnot? Wouldn't it be more empowering to not have any pain?
So, can I trust God for a pain free delivery? I am scared. Because if it isn't, I will want to say HE let me down, but in my heart, I will know that is not true. I will know I just wasn't "there" yet, whatever that means.
If you have a great scripture that helped you through childbirth, let me know. I will put it on my ring of cards that Matthew and I use to remind eachother, when we need it, of the REALITY of God's word.
I shall go give some sleep a go.